Thursday, June 11, 2009

Always changing

Right now, B is feeding E from a bottle. This is important for many reasons. Namely, for when I go back to work E will need to take a bottle. But also so we can go out too. It is important that E gets my milk but can drink from a bottle. At the same time, I don't want her to reject the breast because I only want to pump for times we need it. She can drink from me whenever we are together. 
When H was going through this I never really even thought about it. We just offered her a bottle with expressed milk when we needed to and life was great. This time around I have read too much. There are time frames and rejection of nipples or entire bottles. I am not a lady who likes to get stressed out. *shrug* We will take it one step at a time. There is no point in worrying about if she won't until it is a problem. Plus, I have the greatest husband who also happens to be one of the most involved dads I have ever laid my eyes on. Seriously. B always does more then he needs to and always with pure love for his girls. And, he has more patience then I do. But his patience has actually helped me to yell less and become more patient. Especially with H. And the way she treats him sometimes would make me blow my top. It might make him sad but he never takes it out on her (not to say I do, I just see how gently and wonderful he is with her.)
It is hard to not be a part of this. I want to help, to watch to be with them. But I need to be out of the room when he does this. And, like parenthood has been so far, it will change once again. Always.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009


I want to write everyday. And I am on the computer everyday. But having two hands and being able to think while using those two hands? Well, that is another task all together.

So today's thought?

I am always thinking about teaching. What I will do next year, how to reach students, including technology but not just for the sake of technology. I think about how to incorporate soical justice and the building of a community in whatever we are reading or writing. 

And, well, I want students to read and to write. I have more thoughts but I have lost them for now. I just need to make this more of a habit.